"It wasn't Corey. It was like evil Corey, like Corey's demon," Schuyler writes. Smith's final words to Schuyler: "I'm a kill you." Bleakley lasted longer. But by sundown of the second night he, too, no longer believed he would make it. He died about 18 hours before Schuyler was rescued. Schuyler credits his survival to wearing extra layers of clothing, which he had donned because he was feeling seasick before the accident. He had had a few beers, but had thrown them up. He said Bleakley and Cooper had been drinking beer, but Smith did not drink. None of the bodies has been found. Schuyler says he has not sought counseling since the tragedy, but got a tattoo with the three men's initials on a large cross on his arm. He doesn't sleep well. He won't go back in the waters of the Gulf. He still works as a personal trainer in Tampa, using physical activity as a way to ease the misery.
Friends tell him to forget it. "I can't," he writes. "I wish it were that easy. I lost three friends, including my best friend ... Every time I look at the water, I get the same tormented feelings: My friends are still in there, and they'll always be in there."